Thursday, October 16, 2008

Wondering

Someone I could have loved has left. I might never see him again. We were very different- the two of us- and yet so alike. He'd pore over Mechanical Engineering text books, but always look up when I spoke. He'd always hold doors open for me and never let me stand in line. I'd drag him to concerts he couldn't understand and he'd come amiably and even tell me he enjoyed himself. He'd crack terrible jokes and then stare at me expectantly till I laughed, more at the expression on his face than the joke itself. He'd talk to me about his bike for hours but never get annoyed when I yawned. He loved cooking too and we'd swap recipes and plan the meal we were going to cook together someday. He'd listen patiently, with a smile, while I explained the meaning behind hand gestures in Bharathnatyam and he taught me how to do Fourier transforms in Matlab. We'd talk about our dogs and our families, then go on to talking about our plans for the future. He taught me to think of possibilities I never even knew existed, of how wonderful life can be if you do what you love.

But now, we might never again run together laughing, for shelter from the rain, or stay up all night talking of life and philosophy. Now he writes to me of far away snows on mountains I might never see, while I write to him of traveling in autos and my literary ambitions. Between us, there was always this possibility. A delicious possibility neither of us chose to explore in our brief time together, in the fear of ruining what we had. But now he's gone, and I'm left... wondering...

6 comments:

SaIk said...

sweet !!

gurveen said...

Auww..sweetie..took my advice finally..Really hope something turns out of this..:*

-- a very Serendipity inspired female

Vartika said...

dude!
somehow all the while I had a feeling we were talking about big B...till I went back and it struck me...Mech Engg!
now...
what do I say...I am not serendipity inspired...and I have no advices to offer either...
But I love it when possibilities become actualities...

-High on hopes! :)
:*

Ravali said...

jus take my advice... giv him ur blog link...or mail him abt it :D it wud work out then :D

विकास कुमार said...

aah...!!!

Saurav Jha said...

arre baap re!..little girl!
chase your dreams down!..never let go :)